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Fatherhood…

Our kid is one hip cat...

Our kid is one hip cat...

I imagine that most of my blog readers have already read Brooke’s blog.  But, if you haven’t: we are pregnant!  Brooke showed me the two little pink bars over a month ago now…which is about the right amount of time to actually understand the reality of what has transpired.

My boys can swim.

Seriously, for all you fathers-to-be out there, it’s a pretty good feeling to learn this.  It’s hard not to think about your virility and feel a little extra manly after impregnating a women.  AND, if you were trying to impregnant said woman, all the better.  My guess is that if you were trying NOT to impregnate said woman, you wouldn’t feel virile but rather…shocked…overwhelmed…afraid…come to mind.

Actually, I’ve felt all of those, too.  This is because immediately after feeling mighty proud of your ‘boys’ you realize that a baby will bring drastic changes.  Financial pressure.  Loss of sleep.  Being overwhelmed.  Stress.  Loss of sleep.  Never any time for yourself.  Never any time with your wife.  Loss of sleep.  No more freedom.  And, I’ve heard you don’t get a lot of sleep at first.

Yet, beyond all of this, I am amazed at the creativity that God bestows upon us.  In the middle of my first novel, I realize that through an act of love my wife and I created life.  I realize that she is growing that life — creating that life — inside of her body.  And I realize that a child, really, is the ultimate act of creativity and creation.  Obviously, it is physical creation.  But beyond the physical, it is spiritual creation, emotional creation, life-creation.  We have the chance to offer our child an environment of love, enabling him or her to develop emotionally.  I can take our child camping and read him or her stories and play board games and ball games.  We can teach our child about God.  We will inform his or her sense of humor, his or her outlook on life, his or her loves: of music or art, football or dancing.

Side-stepping the whole nature vs. nurture debate there is this: our child has the imprint of both of us, physically, intellectually, spiritually.  And our child will know no other home better than he or she will know our home.  Although we are not ultimately responsible for who our child becomes, we are the foremost determiners.  We provide the nurture, yes, but we also provided the nature.

So, now that we have spread the word among friends, I take a moment and think.  For a creative like myself and like my wife, this is the pinnacle of our creative participation with a creative God.  And this time now is full of anticipation and excitement.  I only hope to have such space to reflect on the miracle before me in the ensuing months and years.  Especially when I am short on sleep.

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A Walk’s Thoughts…

Brooke and I walked to the store this evening.  She needed olive oil and we were out; now she’s downstairs making dinner and I’m salivating.  We try to walk when we can, especially since we live within walking distance of 2 grocery stores, Target, Blockbuster, our bank, Chipotle, a nice sushi place, a good and cheap Thai restaurant, Subway, Quiznos, and Coldstone.  And, when I say walking distance I don’t mean an hour; I mean ten minutes max one way.  I mean half-an-hour round trips to these places.  

Tonight when we got home I turned the NBA Finals on.  The game was at a commercial.  At the end of the commercial was a 5-second spot about the weather: the meteorologist came on and announced what the temperature was right now.  That was all.  I’ve seen television stations do this sometimes, and the meteorologist comes on and says, essentially, “It’s a nice evening out there,” or “It’s rainy and cold … see more tonight at 10.”  I suppose a lot of this is to bring people back at 10, but doesn’t it communicate something more?  

This stood out starkly as I had just come inside: I knew what the weather was.  I’d just been outside for the last 20 minutes.  Yet, it seemed a perfectly normal occurrence for the meteorologist to come on and announce what the weather was outside.  

Are we this far removed from our environment?

It makes me sad to think of the lack of connection with the created world — the natural world — that we experience in America today.  This is because spending time in creation, away from conveniences and cars and clocks, helps us re-orient ourselves.  Or, it re-orients us.  The ancient Hebrews understood this, and the command to take a Sabbath was rooted in their creation account: they were commanded to stop to worship their Creator.  And, while watching a movie can be a stop-activity, even more is taking a walk or a hike or a bike ride or a run or a … I’ll stop.  This is because television and internet entertain and divert us; spending time in creation either alone or with a spouse (which I highly recommend) or friends, this spending of time focuses us.  It gives clarity, it connects us to ourselves and the world around us.  A movie — the most powerful medium that humanity has so far come up with — cannot offer the same connective experience.  It is, at its core, vicarious: it may give clarity through the stories of others; it does not give clarity and connection to ourselves, others, and our Creator.  

There is a reason why spending time in leisure, often outside, without the worries and deadlines of the day, is called re-creation.  It is time to create ourselves again, to be created again, to be renewed.  I believe that we as a culture need more of this time.  I believe that we need time to connect with the natural and created world, not time of diversion but of conversion: a turning around, a recreation.  I believe that even a 20 minute walk can, in small ways, offer an experience of conversion and recreation.  I want to be a person who takes a lot of 20 minute walks.  And a person who stops and connects with the created world, alone and with others, a person who doesn’t need an update to know that the evening is warm and calm.

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